King Tutankhamun's Tomb

There comes a time in life when we realise that everything happens for a good reason. Its hard to see at that particular time but once your vision is clearly all the little puzzle pieces fit together and make one big picture. I have loved and lost, loved again and then lost and all this happened with one person. Now im just somebody that he used to know...but its alright im better than ever and im sur he is happy with the dough hes earning and the pussy he is getting. 

One thing that i realised is that i have changed alot. Im more independant than ever..i can walk out at 8.30pm at night to the shops nearby and buy food all alone, i keep all my problems to myself, when i get sad i think about why and then when i find out the reasn i just start ignoring it and in the end m happy again, i do what i want when i want and i do what makes me happy, i also dont expect my friends to be there cuz ive been hurt time and time again and i have no faith and im not the "forgiving and forgetting" person that i used to be anymore.I am slowly evolving from an extrovert into an introvert i actually love being alone and i have learnt to keep things to myself to stay away from unneccesary arguments and the pain in the process,i am slowly building my own fortress with the highest and the thickest walls which no one can break down.But i should be careful, a wise man once told me that you shouldnt build a wall that is too high, cuz when it falls itll fall hard and it will kill you, hence i am going to leave a few cracks so that i stay grounded. Even my best friend noticed a change and its all thanks to the pain i have endured in the past. I have healed but just like a wound which turn into a scar...my pain has too and the injury has left a mark that will last a life time to remind me that love is all bullshit and life is about getting somewhere..becoming someone. Once i do, the men will just be plain pawns for me to play with cuz i wouldnt need them all i would need is my career and myself.

 I talked to zhen today and boy do i miss her so much. I then realised in the midst of the convo that i have finally let go. I should live and let live. It doesnt matter if i have been forgotten or that i dont mean anything anymore all that matters is me. Me myself and i, thats all i should care about and thats all that matters. Its ofcourse gets a little lonely once in a while, but its nothing a movie, porn or a blogpost cant cure innit? 

I bet half the people who know me think im insane and the other half thinks im exotic but if i had one word to describe me i would use -->Rockstar hahahaha thats a fact already but on a more serious note i would say the right word would be --> Original Yes i am original im not something you find in petaling street, or in a bar in changkat...nor am i one of those vintage pieces you see lying around in expensive shops.

I'm more of The king tutankhamun's tumb which was found by an Howard Carter the archaeologist. You know those one time discoveries that shock the world kinda things?

So i decided i should find people who treat me special treat me the way i deserve to be treated. period.