Do you have philophobia? i definitely don't. i think emotional attachment is beautiful...sadly many people in this world dont think so, or mayb are afraid.
its a funny thing, how people cant decide what they want?
if they wanna live, or die?
if they wanna make it or break it?
if they wanna change or remain the same?
if they wanna be happy or sad?
if they wanna be lonely or surrounded by people?
Lets just say people in this world are very very complicated. Not all, just some. Sadly i;m one of them. But I know what i want and who i am, and wanna be in the future. So in that sense i m pretty good, i know who i want in my life and who i dont and what i give importance to. Basically i've got my head straight.
It hurts alot when people cant decide whether ur a burden to them, or if your worth it.
Its not so complicated, i mean all that is needed is to see if ur more happy or sad with a person, when your around them, away from them,talking to them.
As they say, " When you look to hard, you cant find what your looking for,even if its right infront of you..."
I hate being lied to,period.
The act of lying and cheating really scars my soul,sometimes to an extent that i might not even say...but trust me...it burns.
Very few people know how I realy am, those who even are close to me and think that they know me really well...u may know how i am, but not who i am. you would have to know me a life time for that!
If i get hurt too many times, i just stop talking to the person hu hurt me or numb myself towards what hurts me. As caring as i m, if you hurt me i detach myself from you...no matter what. If i love you or your my best friend or ur blood related to you. Thats just how i am. I thinks its like natural selection for me. haha. Charles darwin's theory might actually be true huh.
At the moment, I think i m doing pretty well with handling myself. I've realised after a few experiences, you just learn to believe in something adn you end up knowing how exactly to go about things.
I'm just going to go with the flow, for NOW.
I've always wondered how people can say they want you in their life, or that they love you...yet hurt you so much. But i see more of that happening, i've realised some people are just heartless and expect their loved ones to tolerate the pain just because they(the victims) care and love them. While other hurt only those who they love, merely because they love them. i will never fully understand this bloody concept. HOpefully as years pass by, it'll hit me.
TRUTH?
what exactly is this TRUTH we talk about?
its simply being honest to the people who u care about, reagardless of the truth being bitter or sweet.
Sometimes the truth doesnt do good, at first...but later u'll realise that building something with a foundation made of lies...will be broken when a storm occurs. but if you build a foundation based on truth...even a earthquake or tsunami cant break that!
If only some humans were smarter, then they wouldnt get themselves in so much trouble, if you know wat i mean.
Heck no one is perfect, I of all people know that. So admitting to a mistake shouldnt be seen as such a hard thing, after all we all make mistakes. It does need guts tho, because telling the truth means putting away all ego away and just lying down on the floor.
Very few people have ever done that...atleast to me.
I've decided that life is too short to not take risks, i mean hey u never noe wat u might get? \
giving a second chance sometimes might me actually worth it, tho at the moment i'm not too sure if i wld give a second chance to sum1 who's lied to me.
only time will and depends on how the person progresses with themselves as well as me.
Am i heartless? mayb but only cuz when i put my heart out on a plate, it got stabbed and it hurt like a bitch. So not before i do that i have to see if the heart is getting stabbed or kept healthy?
A wise man once said," You never know what you've got, till you've lost it forever..."
this i must say is true.
So i would advice to those out there, if you really think tat ur not appreciating something in life..please start doing so. cuz u never know if it will still be there tomolo. :)
Enough of me being all philosophical and stuff, i'm prolly boring the world to death,wonder if anyone even reads my ramblings.
"Love is the wisdom of the fool and the folly of the wise." - Samuel Johnson
So are you the fool or the wise man?
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