Well i just came back home from college, tired as hell and had a nice dinner with mom at taj, had the freakin CRAVING for these round green circular things with shredded coconut around it and GULA MELACCA in the middle. YUMMM!!! i think i ate lyk 5 round things by myself.
odd craving for malay kuih...so not me.
Other than that college was quite alrite today. I get so happy when i see our lil gang joanna (jo), sashi (sashes), charan, Zhen, suba , shiva and krishant. I think we hav a good group. and i enjoy their company.
Jo is a fantastic person and she's one of my besties! luv ya to bitss woman.
HOw have i been feeling today?
Well to be honest i've had mixed feelings today.
Firstly i felt happy that i met a few fwens and chilled with them, it had been awhile since i had a good laugh, got laughed at and had random convos in a while. it was a light hearted fun feeling i got.
Then there is this ego war tat i;ve been having. i hate having ego..cuz i aint the type to have one. but just to prove to another person that i TOO can play that game.. i have to put it on.
i know they say "an eye for an eye will make the whole world blind" but i think sometimes giving another person the taste of their own medicine...teaches both parties about each other and themselves.
BUt it hurts me to act the way i act sometimes...but as they say again, no pain no gain. i m just waiting to see how it goes as time passes.
But they say if you dont take risks in life, you would never know how something may turn out.
But the question is, do i want to take a risk that might end up making or breaking me? can i take another break? haha
i just hope that i aint being loved for my exterior( not saying tat i have a fantastic exterior), but loved for my interior, for who i m. sucky much? damn dont i have issues.will they ever go away?
Sometimes we just have to get accustomed to things. Eventhough they might hurt and you cant tolerate them anymore...sometimes there is no choice. All you can do is wait for it to end, or you leave the situation. leaving would gain you focus and more concentration on your future, but wouldnt that also make you selfish and a coward?
i havent thought about it properly yet. I just hope people who are dear to me stop getting hurt so much, God's always watching and i know that god is going to help...I m just going to continue to be patient and wait till my life gets where its supposed to be.
so the question is, is there anyone worth suffering for? haha.
You tell me :)
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