There she stood waiting for her bus, the scorching sun burnt on her skin. Sweat dripped down her cheeks and she swore under her breath as soft as a whisper. When people looked at her, they saw a happy go lucky girl...always smiling and cheerful making other ppls day. But little did they know..there was more hidden beneath that smile. She still is the same person...unfortunately she misses her old life..her skool life. HEr friends the way life was then, but now it was all different.
She was as lifeless as a zombie. NOt having fun, nor relaxing..nothing. just doing her daily list of things. You could say she was lyk a walking robot...tuned to do wat its master in this case her future said.
She felt lyk a body witout a soul...lyk a cup of coffee without any milk. WHy Why WHy??? she wondered....
Was it her determination for success or her pain from failure? After all lyk a million people have said...
"Life isnt easy my dear"
To live with your life and to be happy wit it...was what she believed.BUt why did she feel so lonely liek a cold gravestone in a cemetary...like a statue in a park...just lifeless,m lonely and cold.
"The truth hurts my dear" said a voice in her head...
was it her good conscience or her evil speakin? was she really becoming lifeless.... dead lyk dry crisp leaves blowing in the autumn breeze. SHe'll just have to wait and see...
What was this... a sign saying that she's meant to be alone even though there are a million people around her and many friends. Its a pity she doesnt know if their friends or just enemies in disguise.
i guess she has sacrificed a few things to reach to success as it means alot to her....
Her future, her present that was all she could think bout.
SHe is blinded by a curtain called family...which says you just hav to do well. She used to have the confidence once...but then again..she used to be brilliant once...but that was a long long long time ago.
NOw..it eats her alive to see that once the control she had over her bright future is now gone.
" will i ever make it"... said another voice in her head..
that was her fear, her loneliness whispering to her heart...
then her heart began to beat faster...and faster...and faster
"lub dub"..."lub dub"..."lub dub"..."LUB DUB"..."LUB DUB"
Her heart was almost going to explode... in a minute in a few second AND??
Then she heart a voice from up above... where was it comign from she had no idea and it said,
" Once you fall...get up and try harder...twice you fall..get up even faster and try twice and hard...and the third time your surely to get what you want...jsut as long as you try from your heart...dont worry you'll make it"
what was this voice, her dull black pearly eyes...suddenly shone with hope.
was it her mind playing tricks on her...her heart speaking...or her soul she dint noe..but watever it was it made her feel much better.
All the confusion the guilt everything will soon be answered. The guilt of ignoring her loved ones to gain her goal... the guilt of not being able to meet up wit old friends.. will soon be gone..
only time can tell what it meant?
"BBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP....bEEEEEPppPPPPP"
Her bus was finally here, and it was time to go home after a long and tired day. she walked into her bus and leaned against the window...
watched everything move...and soon she fell asleep...
with a sweet smile...
finally the almost burnt out little candle in her heart....was burning brightly, because of hope...
as that was all she had....
No comments:
Post a Comment